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Apr 16th, 2017 at 9:43:32 pm

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 7:32 pm

It’s raining but 64°F… I have nothing to wear for this shit 🌧 🙄

#weather #fashion #thestruggleisreal

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No IRS checks for more than…

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 5:33 pm

No IRS checks for more than a hundred million dollars

I’m glad I read the fine print. Whew… 🤓

#taxnews

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The first nine steps get us sober

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 12:45 pm

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The first nine steps get us sober. The last three keep us sober.

It’s one of the two mindsets in recovery circles and I struggled with it for a long time. Not so much because I was in one camp or the other, but because I often find myself returning to Steps 6 and 7 in the here and now. Returning even though I’ve worked the suggested program of recovery. I return to them when I’m sick of being me, overly tired of living in a way that keeps me stuck. All done with feeling insane.

Six and Seven aren’t accounted for in the last three as the others are. I guess maybe they fall under Step 11, seeking only God’s will…but that doesn’t do it for me. I know the importance of God’s will and seeking only that. I won’t say “I have a few 24 hours” because I hate that.1

Step 11 keeps me on the spiritual path, keeps me out of me, brings enlightenment and whatnot. Sure, I’m all for it. It’s one of my daily pursuits. But sometimes I’m really stuck on a character defect. I mean like seriously, “this is screwing up my life” kinda stuck. My shortcomings, ladies and gentlemen, can literally drive me painfully to my knees, searching for divine relief.

I could seek God’s will through prayer and meditation and after said search I’d be given direction. But when I’m only seeing dysfunction in my behaviors, only living in the problem — I need to feel that “entire ready” part and I need to “humbly ask.” I need to revisit the sixth and seventh steps.

Okay, maybe if I was “better” at working Step 11, I wouldn’t get to that pain point, get to where I’m almost loosing it, shaking with hate, spouting venom at people who aren’t even there. In stressful situations with plenty of history (such as me getting divorced this past year) my fear can and has sent me kneeling before God in emotional agony, asking for God to take away this mess in my head. Even though I am walking the spiritual beam on the whole.

Back to my point. So do we only work steps 1-9 once and then practice steps 10-12 for the rest of our lives?

It doesn’t matter. As usual. Do what’s works for you. Revisiting six and seven isn’t going to hurt anything or anybody. It’s not violating some obscure twelve step recovery law.2 It’s not going unholy against the grain of god’s will.

It’s only going to help remove obstacles that stand in the way of us being the best people that we can be, that stand in the way of us serving our fellow humans, serving each other. It brings relief from the prisons we’ve built and grown accustomed to living in. It ends the suffering, expands trust and faith, and brings us closer to god.

Steps 6 and 7 unbuckle us from our human limitations and let us move about the cabin. Freely. It parts the clouds and let’s us stand in the sunshine of the spirt. And that, my dear good peeps, is not against tradition.

1 Hopefully my words qualify my sobriety without me needing to use time stamps. I’ve heard people use “a few 24 hours” as a stand in for actual recovery talk.

2 If it is written somewhere, it needs to be unwritten.

#alcoholism #advancedsoul

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 14, 2017 at 8:00 pm

“…some obscure recovery law…”

that sums up too much of what i thought of “the program”

jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 15, 2017 at 1:27 pm

back to the topic.
it’s been so long since i commented on what the speaker led the meeting with…

i never understood anyone who insisted the steps or the program had to be “worked” a certain way. some of it would logically follow the rest, but i always felt like the minute you were serious about staying sober you had worked steps 1, 2 and 3. and every time you kept sober and sane after that you were working the rest of the steps.

the “staying sane” part was especially hard for me. i could “not drink” with the best of them but i could “make crazy” better than most. my own harshest critic. other people in the program were candidates for the loony bin as far as i could tell but i was only in charge of my own behavior. i have behaved every bit as dishonorable stark raving sober as i ever did when i was drunk.

tcr! tcr! · Apr 15, 2017 at 7:13 pm

You’ve also behaved every bit as honorable as the best spiritually enlightened person I know.

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HideAndSeek · Apr 14, 2017 at 10:23 pm

First 3 get us sober. Last 3 keep us sober. But the quality of our sobriety depends on the how well we work the ones in-between.

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The Last Jedi teaser poster

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 11:51 am

The Last Jedi teaser poster

Source: @starwars on twitter

#starwars #thelastjedi

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The Last Jedi teaser trailer

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 11:49 am

December 15, peeps.

#starwars #thelastjedi

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Fearless Girl’s in the wrong place

tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 8:59 am

Wall Street Bull Sculptor Says NYC Violated His Rights With 'Fearless Girl'

Wall Street Bull Sculptor Says NYC Violated His Rights With ‘Fearless Girl’

According to The Associated Press, Italian-American sculptor Arturo Di Modica is accusing New York City of violating his legal rights by permitting the installation of “Fearless Girl” in front of his bull, without his permission.

Di Modica is expected to explain this accusation in a news conference on Wednesday, his attorney Norman Siegel claimed. The sculptor will be challenging the city officials who issued a permit for the bronze girl to stay until February of 2018, demanding that the city provide documentation behind the decision.

A day before International Women’s Day, “Fearless Girl” first appeared on the Wall Street traffic island, meant to symbolize the lack of women on the boards of U.S. corporations. Designed by artist Kristen Visbal, the statue was celebrated by some as a model of female empowerment and criticized by others as a form of pinkwashing.

Just to clarify… Charging Bull isn’t meant to represent the exact opposite thing Fearless Girl is opposing. Having her standing defiantly opposite is distorting Di Modica’s artistic intent. I’d be pissed if I were him, too.

I love Fearless Girl but not where she’s at. Seems to me a bit of advertising in the guise of women’s rights all while coat-tailing on another’s work. It’s the right message delivered by the wrong people to the wrong place.

Maybe State Street Corp should’ve installed Fearless Girl in front of Trump Tower.

#artnews #fearlessgirl

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 15, 2017 at 12:37 am

me too. you can fly whatever flag you want but “time and place”. the “Illinois Nazis” featured in The Blues Brothers were based on a real event. These jackhammers wanted to march. They wanted to march in a heavily Jewish neighborhood. My arrogant opinion is that they didn’t really want to march; they wanted to provoke and be protected while they did so.

Yes. Trump Tower.

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Fuji Instax mini 90 with strap

tcr! · Apr 13, 2017 at 5:01 pm

Fuji Instax mini 90 with strap

Me: the first thing when operating the new Fuji is putting the strap around your neck like this.

Maggie: so the first thing is basically looking like a dork.

#photos #fuji #maggie

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Word Up! by Korn

tcr! · Apr 13, 2017 at 2:38 pm

Peeps, here’s your get-it-underway jam to power through the rest of your Thursday work day.

Lyrics only video because the original is dumb. Still one of my top 5 fave bands from the 90s.

#musicvideos #korn

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Donut confessional, first entry

tcr! · Apr 13, 2017 at 11:42 am

Yesterday some of the co-workers had a client meeting of sorts. Afterward one of the guys brought out the remaining Dunkin Donuts for those of us who didn’t attend. I had two donuts and I’m not proud of that.

For the record I’d also like to admit that I have just now visited every room in the office, looking to see if any happened to survive the night. Sadly, none did.

😞 🍩 #worknews #donuts

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 14, 2017 at 4:27 am

Late Feb or Early March, ‘05

I heard the news today.
HST killed himself.
Very shortly afterward, Trudeau’s strip gave it to us in INK.
I’ll never forget asking ELO if it was funny.
Her reply?
Would Hunter laugh?

Like a drunk chimp on acid.
:)

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tcr! tcr! · Apr 14, 2017 at 7:57 am

So I googled “drunk chimp on acid” and this was one of the first results…

“Andrew Haynes kicks off 2010’s Christmas miscellany with reports of rampant reindeer, sozzled starlings and junkie monkeys, and a look at how goats seem to be the cause of many of man’s sins”

http://www.pharmaceutical-journal.com/opinion/comment/the-animal-world-has-its-junkies-too/11052360.article

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 14, 2017 at 8:49 am

Every Damn Thing.

Years of alcohol abuse alongside copious amounts of medications, initially for arthritic pain and later insomnia, took their toll on His health. A series of car accidents only exacerbated His addictions and He eventually underwent a series of surgeries for a stomach ulcer in 1959. Coupled with a deteriorating liver and the need for a blood transfusion, by 1962 He had lost a significant amount of weight, reaching a low of 30 kg (66 pounds). Drifting in and out of consciousness for several months, He died at age 47 at His villa in Plascassier (Grasse), on the French Riviera, on 10 October 1963, the day before filmmaker and friend Jean Cocteau died.
His last words were “Every damn thing you do in this life, you have to pay for.

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Attack of the 50ft Woman t-shirt

tcr! · Apr 13, 2017 at 11:34 am

Attack of the 50ft Woman t shirt

It’s navy blue and I love it.

#photos #fashion

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 14, 2017 at 8:50 am

Thorazine? You don’t need no Thorazine!

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