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Body Movin’ by Beastie Boys

tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 9:14 am

While checking the Internets on this last day of 2017, Alexa decided to play some Beastie Boys to go with my morning coffee. So peeps without further ado, here’s your up-rockin-electro-shocking jam for today.

They still got some of the best videos.

#musicvideos #beastieboys

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The tallest wall, white to black

tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 8:28 am

White wall is becoming black Black wall is finished Black wall in the morning

This is why I was on the ladder yesterday, I needed a black wall, like my soul.

It’s also reminding me of a door this morning. I’m thinking I might put a doorknob on there. 🤔

#photos #homeimprovement

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keamoose keamoose · Dec 31, 2017 at 9:37 am

That looks pretty slick. And also doorlike. It looks like the whole thing would swing open and an implausible ocean breeze would blow in and you’d walk out onto a sailing ship at sea in Narnia and go on an adventure.

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keamoose keamoose · Dec 31, 2017 at 9:39 am

And furthermore, whenever you look out that window, the weather and the lighting will be somewhat different from the rest of your windows. Because it’s somewhere else.

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 31, 2017 at 2:04 pm

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tcr! tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 6:18 pm

Opening to Narnia is perfect. Maggie and I have a running joke about Narnia. It’s always where we’re going.

I ordered a door knob to mount, should be here by the 10th. Here’s another photo from the dining room table.

Black wall with Christmas tree

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tcr! tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 6:20 pm

And another one from right now. There’s magic beyond the darkness.

Black wall with Christmas tree at night

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Up high on a ladder

tcr! · Dec 30, 2017 at 3:25 pm

Up high on a ladder

#photos #homeimprovement

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So long as I continue to do it

tcr! · Dec 30, 2017 at 10:06 am

Audio (MP3): 20171230 - So long as I continue to do it

Amaryllis starting to open

I’m overly fond of how they worded all of AA’s Twelve Steps.Case in point: the 11th Step.

Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
Step 11 of Alcoholics Anonymous

It doesn’t say that we pray in the morning and meditate in the afternoon or whatever. It says that we continued to seek, it doesn’t say when or where or how. The reason they didn’t put it on a schedule is because some people might work the third shift.

It’s really that simple. It’s not up to me to assume that everybody else’s life is just like mine and they need to work the steps just as I do.

Sometimes I kneel when I pray. Sometimes I don’t. Sometimes my prayers last five seconds and sometimes they’re extended. Sometimes all my heart and soul are in them. Sometimes I’m just mouthing the words. That’s okay. Because I’m praying.

I never sit Indian style with my hands on my knees and meditate either. That doesn’t work for me. I either end up falling asleep or thinking about something nonsensical. And the point of meditation for me is to quiet my mind. To listen. To not to have all the crazy monkey chatter going on. Just shut it all down and let my thoughts come and go as they please.

The only way that I can do that for long is to have some meaningless, mind-numbing task to do. Maybe I’ll meditate when I’m folding laundry or doing dishes or cutting the grass or just riding my bike.

It doesn’t matter. However I do it is fine so long as I continue to do it. “Continue” and “sought” are the first two keywords in the 11th Step.

Only seeking God’s will when I pray is also important. One of my most often prayers in early recovery was:

“God, I don’t care what happens just help me accept it.”

Prayers for me don’t work. Prayers for God’s will do. They keep me focused. They keep me out of what I want and in what’s really important.

And after I pray I meditate. Sometimes only for a moment, sometimes more. I put myself out there and I need to be open to the cosmos sending something back.

God speaks to us. Directly. It took me a long time to let go of the notion that God is separate from us. That God’s somewhere else, far away. But I don’t believe that God is anymore. I believe that God is here. Right here. Right now. With me, with each of us. In this very room. Or wherever you’re reading this.

Quiet your mind and feel the presence. We’re never alone. Tune out the static. It’s irrelevant. Embrace the peace.

You deserve it.

PS- The plant in the picture is an amaryllis. I got it from Trader Joe’s.

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JayJayFrench · Dec 30, 2017 at 12:26 pm

I live mindfully and try to do the next right thing. It keeps me on the right path.

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Anonymous · Dec 30, 2017 at 1:23 pm

Here’s a step 11 worksheet I use every day check it out.

tcr! tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 8:22 am

I like that! With the Big Book quotes, it really helps clarify what I should be seek. :)

Anonymous · Dec 31, 2017 at 4:26 pm

I use that and it helps me tremendously it’s right out of the big book

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Anonymous · Dec 30, 2017 at 5:44 pm

That’s it! I pray to be made aware of my higher power’s will, not mine. Before it was praying for my will, a new job, to better my situation etc. Now I pray for guidance of his will for me and the power to carry that will out. Because it’s important for us to remember, we aren’t in charge, we tried that and it failed miserably!

tcr! tcr! · Dec 31, 2017 at 8:20 am

Yep, when I’m in charge I make a mess of my life.

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wanttopushbutton · Dec 30, 2017 at 6:30 pm

awesome - thank you. I especially like the “God is here. Right here. Right now” part.

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lifesStruggles · Dec 31, 2017 at 10:46 am

What is step 1

tcr! tcr! · Jan 1, 2018 at 11:17 am

I’m not sure if you’re being serious or not 🤔

lifesStruggles · Jan 1, 2018 at 11:23 am

I’m 49 years old and don’t feel much like playing lol , so yes I was serious. I had a nice person send me a link to the book. I am reading the doctors message now. On day 3 ….pretty proud. Trying to find ways to entertain my brain. I usually can’t sleep when I don’t drink, so took something to help last night. Just hoping not to get as emotional as I was yesterday. So far I’m not.

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hankthesmallcat · Jan 3, 2018 at 8:19 pm

You definitely don’t have to say anything. Remember, it’s an anonymous program and “what you hear here, who you see here, let it stay here” (read in every meeting I’ve been to). Do you have a computer? Go to InTheRooms.org and do a video meeting. All you have to have is google chrome (easily downloadable). What about a Big Book? You can read that in the privacy of your own home! Day 6 coming up!

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Stare down, standoff with Pearl

tcr! · Dec 28, 2017 at 9:45 pm

Stare down standoff with Pearl

#photos #cats

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Dec 28th, 2017 at 6:00:57 pm

tcr! · Dec 28, 2017 at 6:00 pm

Maggie: I can’t take that guy with the ponytail seriously. And if any guy has a man-bun, he shouldn’t be talking.

#maggie #fashion

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 31, 2017 at 2:07 pm

Maggie: Praise the Very Funny Fugging Lawd! A man-bun is the Donald Trump of men’s fashion.

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tcr! tcr! · Jan 1, 2018 at 11:05 am

Haha! 😁

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Silver Santa with parachute

tcr! · Dec 28, 2017 at 4:58 pm

Silver Santa with parachute

I just noticed we forgot to send Momma J’s bouncy Silver Santa home with her.

I wouldn’t play with him too much. 😉

#photos #christmas

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Fuzzy llama Christmas ornament

tcr! · Dec 28, 2017 at 12:30 pm

Fuzzy llama Christmas ornament

It’s December 28th and I just plugged my Christmas tree back in.

What else am I to do? Just look at this fuzzy llama!

#photos #christmas #llamas

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keamoose keamoose · Dec 28, 2017 at 5:46 pm

Hey, the Twelve Days of Christmas are 25 December – 5 January, of course your tree should still be plugged in!

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keamoose keamoose · Dec 28, 2017 at 5:47 pm

Also, I ❤️ your llama.

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tcr! tcr! · Dec 28, 2017 at 7:37 pm

Thanks! Sara got him for Maggie. 😊

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 31, 2017 at 2:09 pm

Yep, keep the tree up. Llama are cool.

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Peach Bread Pudding

tcr! · Dec 27, 2017 at 11:08 pm

Peach Bread Pudding

I suppose this peach bread pudding isn’t going to eat itself at 11 o’clock at night.

🍑🤔 #photos #breadpudding

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Cats debating the cold

tcr! · Dec 27, 2017 at 8:22 pm

Mirah debating if she wants to go all the way outside Pearl debating if she wants to go all the way outside

Mirah’s debating if she wants to go all the way outside or not and then a few minutes later Pearl has the same debate. With it being -2°F and falling neither will commit.

Please note: This is their basement window and I haven’t shut the window completely on their tails. I just shut it far enough to remind them they can’t be half in and half out. They like to be half in and half out, though. Because cats.

In the summer I leave their window open all the time but since my basement desk is right by the window it’s too cold for all that horseshit now.

#photos #cats

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