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Inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest

tcr! · Dec 29, 2019 at 5:04 pm

Audio (MP3): 20191229 Inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest

Poinsettia in the sun

Seeking equality, fairness, the greater good…that does something remarkable for me. It breaks my selfish bubble. It makes me a whole human being. It gives me freedom.

But wait, there’s more. So much more. Seeking balance and harmony for all…brings me out of my despair. It brings light to my darkness. It brings healing to my pain. It lifts me up and out of feeling down and blue, up to the level of okay I was looking for much of my life. And being okay inside and out is the remarkable place I was talking about earlier.

When I make life not all about my pleasure or my suffering, oh wow is it good. It’s elevation.

Like inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest and bringing everyone else up top to share the view.

You probably already knew all of that but it took me almost a lifetime to figure out.

#photos #goteam 😊 #lettherebehope #diariespodcast

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Momma J Momma J · Dec 29, 2019 at 5:56 pm

I’m glad you got there!

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

As am I!

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 29, 2019 at 7:14 pm

😎

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 29, 2019 at 7:15 pm

I wanted to put the praying hands thing people use but my standard issue is better/closer to how I feel.

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

It’s a good standard issue

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marney0160 marney0160 · Dec 30, 2019 at 4:39 pm

Words I needed to read today. Ty πŸ’–

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

You are most welcome!

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chrisrich · Dec 31, 2019 at 5:51 am

Wonderful words!

tcr! tcr! · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:02 am

Thank you!

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Uncle Timmy · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:08 am

Dont ever stop writing your thoughts.
Hits home every time!

tcr! tcr! · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:15 am

Thanks man! I haven’t felt much like writing these past few months but positive words like yours pump up my motivation.

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The summer of 2019

tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:00 am

Audio (MP3): 20190927 - The summer of 2019

Morning green lights

Peeps, it was a busy summer.

Most of it was spent cleaning and packing up my house. That was a lot. I lived there for 11 years, the longest place I’d ever lived in my life. I threw away countless bags of trash, of life debris and clutter. β›Έ

In June Sara and I went to see Ludovico at the Cadillac Palace in Chicago. Maggie and I went to Gay Pride in Aurora. Sara took all of us to Cantigny Park for my 47th birthday. We played mini golf in the dark during Swedish Days.

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Botsford · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:08 am

Life is good! Enjoy the ride😊

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:38 am

🎑

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Pelletier · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:09 am

Can I give you BOTH a “Happy” and a “Sad” like?…… Gonna miss you at the office.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:25 am

Maybe we’ll all hook up again at MATS next year!! πŸš›

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Rich J · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:17 am

Who’d a thunk it. Your life change has led you on an incredible journey so far, hasn’t it?

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:26 am

It most certainly has πŸ’«

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Laurie · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:21 am

I am so very happy for you! You are a great guy! ♥️

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:26 am

Thank you!

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asquared01 · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:23 am

Sounds like a fantastic summer! Congratulations on the move and the new job! :)

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:27 am

Thanks!! It was pretty fantastic. πŸŽ‰

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flood · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:40 am

It’s so great to hear how well you are doing- congratulations!! 😊

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:32 am

Hard telling where I’d be at if it wasn’t for the good people at the Kane County Judicial Center! 😊

flood · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:58 am

😊

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sprout · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:50 am

Congrats, old friend. Happy that you’ve found the happiness you deserve.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:36 am

Thank you. The last time you were in Chicago was November 2013. I think you’re overdue. πŸ˜‰

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Ritter Parcel · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:35 am

So happy for you and Maggie! You both deserve happiness. Cant wait to meet Sarah hint hint lol

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:37 am

So when are you and Mike coming to visit? Bring Justice, too!!

Ritter Parcel · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:45 am

Mike, Travis has spoken lol

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Lewis · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:49 am

Very cool…best wishes to you and Sara.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:36 pm

Thank you!

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cormanang · Sep 27, 2019 at 12:09 pm

TEAM Travis rules. I am happy for you my friend.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:36 pm

Thanks!!

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Sep 27, 2019 at 12:44 pm

😎

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DeeDee · Sep 27, 2019 at 1:52 pm

Ulysses S Unicorn

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Momma J Momma J · Sep 27, 2019 at 2:36 pm

I’m so happy for you, so proud of you!

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Raes · Sep 27, 2019 at 2:41 pm

Life is a journey…and new beginnings to look forward to.

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tism tism · Sep 27, 2019 at 4:29 pm

W00t!

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franh franh · Sep 27, 2019 at 4:56 pm

Couldn’t be happier for you buddy. Life is good.

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elaineorr · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:26 pm

Lots of good thoughts

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edox edox · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:34 pm

Video (MP4): congrats fireworks spiral

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Irene · Sep 27, 2019 at 9:59 pm

Were you able to transfer within your company or is it a brand new job? Best wishes to all of you on your new beginnings !! How exciting, how fantastic, make the best of everything… Much love!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 10:10 am

Whole new company, fresh start… And thank you!!

Irene · Sep 28, 2019 at 12:50 pm

Good for you. Good luck!

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tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 10:50 am

PS- there’s a lot of false starts in life. Keep going… πŸ’–

Morning green lights false start

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annekothe annekothe · Sep 28, 2019 at 11:29 am

😘

tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 1:02 pm

😘

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jolly green.mp3

tcr! · Sep 21, 2019 at 8:30 am

Audio (MP3): 20190921 - jolly green

Please enjoy another song I recorded sometime in the late 90s, maybe 1998. Of course I wrote all the lyrics and music and played all the instruments. Because that’s what you do when you’re me.

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diaries for 2018 - book now available

tcr! · Apr 29, 2019 at 2:00 pm

Audio (MP3): 20190429 - diaries for 2018 - book now available

diaries for 2018 tcr eyes closed

After all my moaning my 2018 diaries book is now ready to be put in your shopping carts. If you have an unfulfilled diaries magazine subscription don’t buy the book. Your paperback will be in the mail soon.

The ones available here on the site are autographed, too. Paperback and Kindle editions are available on Amazon, non-autographed of course.

You should buy my book. And then tell your friends about it. And share it on social media, as you do. And then leave an Amazon review. I know that’s asking a lot but it would mean the world to me and I’d be eternally grateful. πŸ’™ Sharing and reviews really do help.

It’d be really cool if I could just do my writing (both spiritual and ridiculous) and earn a living doing such. As it is now, I do both when I have time. I hate making room for those things that are truly important. I just want to do those things that absolutely make truly my heart sing all the fucking time.

I have at least 15 pieces that I’ve started writing but haven’t had the chance to finish. I have to feel what I’m writing or else the words come across like a piece of shit. And the writing zone isn’t something I can just turn on when I have 15 minutes to spare.

And then I have at least 50 podcast episodes I could record but again, I have to be in the mood. Otherwise the words come out of my mouth like I’m an uncaring automaton.

Anyways, I’ll quit bemoaning. Go buy my book. 😊

Peace out, death to dogmas.

#diariesbook #diariespodcast #forsale

Get the diaries for 2018 book

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tcr! tcr! · Apr 29, 2019 at 2:37 pm

PS- The cover only went through four progressions. Sara vetoed the first cover straight away… 😊

diaries for 2018 cover progression

Hater McGhray Hater McGhray · Apr 29, 2019 at 2:54 pm

Sara was right.

tcr! tcr! · Apr 29, 2019 at 6:51 pm

Absolutely right. She usually is 😊

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JJania · Apr 29, 2019 at 2:56 pm

I’ll be getting my paperback Wednesday.

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Back to regular life

tcr! · Apr 19, 2019 at 9:56 am

Audio (MP3): 20190419 - Back to regular life

Do you know what I really hate?

When somebody is being over-the-top nice after they’ve fucked something up.

Do you know what I really like?

When someone offers up a sincere apology and then gets on with the day.

Own it. Regret it. Forget it.

Take five minutes, have a real conversation, and then go back to regular life.

If I don’t acknowledge I can come across like an unsympathetic magician. Trying to trick you into paying attention to my magic rabbit and hat. All the while my other hand is holding a bloody knife. I’m not fooling anyone.

And then if I’m dancing around like an out-of-the-ordinary, out-of-control ballerina with an obviously fabricated sugary song and dance, it only makes whatever transgression worse. It prolongs the distress.

Human alien hybrid riding pegasus

Elaine said to me seven years ago, “…and don’t grovel.”

I get “wanting to make it better” with flowers from up my sleeve and I’m sure I’ve tried to pull rosy ruses myself. But keep it to a minimum. Otherwise it’s a black reminder. The fuck up lingers like a red rubber band, stretching the hurt out for way longer than it needs to.

Humility. Brevity. Authenticity. I won’t go wrong with these.

#relationships #advancedsoul #diariespodcast

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Momma J Momma J · Apr 19, 2019 at 11:08 am

Great philosophy

tcr! tcr! · Apr 20, 2019 at 12:47 pm

Learned the hard way πŸ˜‰

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Apr 19, 2019 at 4:21 pm

😎

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No horse blankets

tcr! · Apr 10, 2019 at 9:53 am

Audio (MP3): 20190410 - No horse blankets

No horse blankets

When I got to the place where I couldn’t stand myself anymore, where I didn’t want to be the person I’d always been. And not do the same things I’d always done, I can see now that’s when I had reached the breaking point.

The pain of being me had broken my very soul. Fuck.

It wasn’t the drinking, it wasn’t ever the drugs. It was me. It wasn’t the traffic or the other drivers. It wasn’t other people at all. Well, it was some of those people…but when that blanket of denial was pulled back just far enough I could see, when a light came on that cast a clarity almost too bright on what I’d been doing to myself nothing ever looked the same again in the days after.

Thinking back to that moment and all the desperate, frantic pain, tortured to tears, completely sober and sick of being myself, that’s when I turned a corner and walked down a path I’d only heard other people talk about.

And that’s when the spiritual revolution began.

No horse blankets.

#photos #alcoholism #lettherebehope #diariespodcast

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vaughn3 · Apr 10, 2019 at 1:46 pm

Well said

tcr! tcr! · Apr 10, 2019 at 4:47 pm

Thank you!

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glenn.cremer glenn.cremer · Apr 11, 2019 at 12:59 pm

I had never heard it put that way, but well said.

tcr! tcr! · Apr 11, 2019 at 6:59 pm

Thanks ❀️

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FMN.mp3

tcr! · Apr 6, 2019 at 1:20 pm

Audio (MP3): 20190406 - FMN

Please enjoy a song I recorded sometime in the late 90s, maybe 1998. Of course I wrote all the lyrics and music and played all the instruments. Because that’s what you do when you’re me.

The additional vocals/voices are messages left on my home answering machine. When those were a thing.

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Confront your feelings

tcr! · Mar 7, 2019 at 7:00 pm

Audio (MP3): 20190307 - Confront your feelings

Video (MP4): 20190307 - Confront your feelings

20190307 Confront your feelings

I’ve been writing and recording music for close to 30 years. This is the latest track. You should listen to it with headphones.

The words below are various thoughts I’ve had and one-liners I’ve collected over the last year. They seem to go hand in hand with the audio. We can’t be a fruity butterfly all the time.


Intolerant. Not verbally just mentally.

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tcr! diaries podcast on Spotify

tcr! · Jan 21, 2019 at 8:52 pm

tcr diaries podcast on Spotify

You can now listen to my podcast on Spotify! Yay! πŸŽ™πŸŽ‰

Just search for “tcr diaries” and boom .. πŸ’₯

#diariespodcast

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Dano · Jan 21, 2019 at 11:06 pm

Awesome! Nice job!

tcr! tcr! · Jan 22, 2019 at 8:47 am

Thanks, Dan!

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JSON Feed for the Podcast

tcr! · Dec 17, 2018 at 8:42 am

JSON Feed for the Podcast

And then I finally got around to adding a JSON Feed for the Podcast like I did for the Blog.

Because that will feed into my master plan. Mwahahaha.

#webdev #diariespodcast

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