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like a fatalistic mist

tcr! · Mar 25, 2020 at 8:56 am

Audio (MP3): 20200325 - like a fatalistic mist

3:46 am: God, I am so sick of being awake.

6:37 am: Just because you stop talking about things doesn’t mean everything’s okay.

Black and white light reflection

An x-boss of mine and I would argue and argue about things. And we’d argue about the same kinds of things over and over again. Architecture, database modeling, how to reply to emails. Crap that was important for sure and some crap that wasn’t.

For the longest time I would back down because he was my boss and I worked for him, even if I felt that he was in the wrong. He wasn’t the healthiest tool in the shed. Not saying that I am either but I do try in earnest to balance on the spiritual beam.

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Momma J Momma J · Mar 25, 2020 at 2:59 pm

I agree with everything you said

tcr! tcr! · Mar 25, 2020 at 7:00 pm

I hope so šŸ˜‰

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angeline35 angeline35 · Mar 29, 2020 at 11:12 pm

I love the statement “assholes abound”. I took more from it than just that though. Lol

tcr! tcr! · Mar 30, 2020 at 9:49 am

Good! It was meant for the taking ā¤ļø

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iā€™m not a hybrid.mp3

tcr! · Mar 24, 2020 at 12:00 pm

Audio (MP3): 20200324 - iā€™m not a hybrid

Please enjoy another song I recorded sometime in the late 90s, maybe 1996. Of course I wrote all the lyrics and music and played all the instruments. Because that’s what you do when you’re me.

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Coronavirus overtakes the airwaves

tcr! · Mar 23, 2020 at 9:56 am

Audio (MP3): 20200323 - Coronavirus overtakes the airwaves

20200323 Coronavirus overtakes the airwaves

Me: Alexa, play WBEZ.

WBEZ: Coronavirus cases in Illinois have surpassed 1,000 and now includes an infant.


Me: Ugh. Alexa, play WNYC.

WNYC: Mayor Blasio said that the city’s 11 public hospitals have a week before they run out of life-saving equipment and medical supplies to treat patients with COVID-19.


Me: Well good. Alexa, play WFPL.

WFPL: There are 103 people with positive coronavirus tests in Kentucky as of Sunday evening. Three people have died as a result of the coronavirus.


Me: No. No corona. Alexa, play StarTalk Radio.

StarTalk Radio: On this episode of StarTalk Radio, we sit down with Dr. Irwin Redlener, Director of the National Center for Disaster Preparedness, to discuss everything we need to know about the Coronavirus…


Me: What the holy fuck? Alexa, play Science Friday.

Science Friday: Experiencing COVID-19 information overload? Two experts offer clarity on the studies taking over news headlines this week…

Me: Dude, you’re part of the fucking problem. All of you. You’re killing me here with this, the endless corona train of viral lunacy. I just want normal talk radio for like five fucking minutes.


šŸš‚šŸ¦ šŸ¦ šŸ¦ 

#coronavirus #talkradio #allislost #diariespodcast

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fiatlux423 · Mar 23, 2020 at 2:46 pm

Listen to KEXP my friend. Cheryl Waters will make everything better.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 23, 2020 at 4:56 pm

I can’t the kxep.org website to load anymore

fiatlux423 · Mar 23, 2020 at 5:09 pm

What? I’m listening to Troy Nelson right now

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marney0160 marney0160 · Mar 24, 2020 at 11:23 am

I’m listening to the birds outside šŸ’–

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diaries podcast map for March 2020

tcr! · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:15 pm

diaries podcast map for March 2020

I’m kinda disappointed that nobody from Libya listens to my podcast šŸ˜ž

#allislost #diariespodcast

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keamoose keamoose · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:25 pm

Maybe they do but their ISP tags them as being in Egypt. Happens to us all the time.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:55 pm

Really? So they don’t get blocked or something?

keamoose keamoose · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:57 pm

I was being a little sarcastic, but we often show up as being in Whitehorse or Edmonton, which are thousands of kilometres away. Not sure why.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 8:34 am

Yep, maps like mine aren’t based on real GPS data as far as I know. I’m pretty sure it’s ISP physical address stuff.

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Karly · Mar 20, 2020 at 11:08 pm

At first I thought this was the pandemic map.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 8:35 am

Give it another month and the maps will prob be interchangeable šŸ‘šŸ‘

Karly · Mar 21, 2020 at 9:51 am

I’d rather that in a month yours has more red. šŸ˜‰

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Kelly K · Mar 21, 2020 at 12:21 am

I feel like you should amp up your outreach to Chad.

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sprout · Mar 21, 2020 at 9:22 am

But you don’t care about Chad?

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 9:59 am

I guess I never really think about them. They’re one of those countries I learned about in grade school that I didn’t know what to do with.

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whittaker7221 · Mar 22, 2020 at 3:08 pm

If I lived in Libya, I would! šŸ˜

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Corona office bunker

tcr! · Mar 19, 2020 at 12:31 pm

Audio (MP3): 20200319 - Corona office bunker

Corona office bunker

I’m sitting in a basement room surrounded by four concrete walls and one door. I haven’t seen, regular natural light since Sunday. My tech job encourages social distancing so there’s no getting out of work. Most of my office works from home regardless of whatever pandemic is harassing the world. I’ve been listening to the same YouTube playlist since Tuesday afternoon.

I’m an introverted social butterfly and the lack of ridiculous public outbursts to unsuspecting cashiers leaves me feeling blue and unfulfilled.

If I eat one more cutie orange I’m gonna puke. My guacamole is browning.

Everything is terrible.

How are you?

PS- we’re gonna come out of this a better species. Wave to everybody you see. Give them a double thumbs up from six feet away. šŸ‘šŸ‘

#photos #basement #coronavirus #diariespodcast

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keamoose keamoose · Mar 19, 2020 at 12:44 pm

We’re all good up here. Feel free to send me ridiculous unwarranted outbursts as needed to keep morale up. šŸ‘šŸ‘

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Uncle Timmy · Mar 19, 2020 at 12:54 pm

Keep us informed what happens inside your world!
Looking forward to it!

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fiatlux423 · Mar 19, 2020 at 1:16 pm

KEXP.org is keeping me going for real.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:02 am

I’ve always loved them guys. I should see if they have a Fire TV app.

fiatlux423 · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:38 am

Who, the KEXP radio station? I love them so much.

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threecrates threecrates · Mar 19, 2020 at 1:25 pm

Lots of love and be well my friend. šŸ¤˜šŸ»šŸ˜·šŸ¤˜šŸ»

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asquared01 · Mar 19, 2020 at 1:38 pm

Dude! You need to see the natural light! Take care of yourself. I’m an introvert too. Right now, it’s not too different for me since I rarely leave the house during winter. šŸ˜‚

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Kelly K · Mar 19, 2020 at 3:20 pm

I love the PS!
I’m know I’m being all radical here, but maybe change up the playlist, step outside for a breath of fresh air.
I can also call you randomly and ask you if you found everything you’re looking for, and give you a random total for your pretend purchases if that would cheer you up…

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flood · Mar 19, 2020 at 6:14 pm

Hang in there! Where is your cat?

tcr! tcr! · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:10 am

Probably off chasing chipmunks in the other part of the basement. That’s the norm come March.

flood · Mar 20, 2020 at 10:12 am

Ours are not liking being cooped up with the dog in this crummy weather.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:01 am

Yep. Lotta cooped up going around!

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Irene · Mar 19, 2020 at 6:30 pm

Go outside and get some fresh air every morning when you first get up šŸ˜Š

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:01 am

Once the weather warms I should start doing that. It was 26F when I got up this morning. šŸ„¶

Irene · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:06 am

Correct, but you need to breathe deeply all that fresh crisp morning air blow out slowly just do that a few times and you will feel terrific when you go back inside… in the frigid winter morning air sometimes I can only get my storm door open a crack because it is so froze, enough for me to get my nostrils out and breathe that deep crisp air. LOL seriously!

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franh franh · Mar 19, 2020 at 6:40 pm

Doing ok down in Florida. Was gonna come up and visit next week but decided it best to stay out of airports and such. Be up there when things get back to somewhat normal. šŸ‘šŸ‘

tcr! tcr! · Mar 21, 2020 at 10:00 am

Looking forward to seeing you!

franh franh · Mar 21, 2020 at 11:12 am

Will be nice to see you too. Be well

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Space drift sunshine

tcr! · Jan 23, 2020 at 10:45 pm

Audio (MP3): 20200123 - Space drift sunshine

Video (MP4): 20200123 - Space drift sunshine

20190307 Confront your feelings

I don’t know why but it’s important that I make things like this.

šŸ‘½ #diariespodcast #diariesvideo

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tism tism · Jan 24, 2020 at 8:11 am

Disco party in the basement? Matrix remake? Alien incursion?

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JJ · Jan 24, 2020 at 9:43 am

Beautiful. šŸ¦•šŸŖšŸ’”

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marney0160 marney0160 · Jan 28, 2020 at 11:05 pm

I think you have a ghost in your house!

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Inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest

tcr! · Dec 29, 2019 at 5:04 pm

Audio (MP3): 20191229 - Inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest

Poinsettia in the sun

Seeking equality, fairness, the greater good…that does something remarkable for me. It breaks my selfish bubble. It makes me a whole human being. It gives me freedom.

But wait, there’s more. So much more. Seeking balance and harmony for all…brings me out of my despair. It brings light to my darkness. It brings healing to my pain. It lifts me up and out of feeling down and blue, up to the level of okay I was looking for much of my life. And being okay inside and out is the remarkable place I was talking about earlier.

When I make life not all about my pleasure or my suffering, oh wow is it good. It’s elevation.

Like inwardly summiting a spiritual Mt Everest and bringing everyone else up top to share the view.

You probably already knew all of that but it took me almost a lifetime to figure out.

#photos #goteam šŸ˜Š #lettherebehope #diariespodcast

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Momma J Momma J · Dec 29, 2019 at 5:56 pm

I’m glad you got there!

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

As am I!

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 29, 2019 at 7:14 pm

šŸ˜Ž

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Dec 29, 2019 at 7:15 pm

I wanted to put the praying hands thing people use but my standard issue is better/closer to how I feel.

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

It’s a good standard issue

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marney0160 marney0160 · Dec 30, 2019 at 4:39 pm

Words I needed to read today. Ty šŸ’–

tcr! tcr! · Dec 30, 2019 at 5:18 pm

You are most welcome!

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chrisrich · Dec 31, 2019 at 5:51 am

Wonderful words!

tcr! tcr! · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:02 am

Thank you!

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Uncle Timmy · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:08 am

Dont ever stop writing your thoughts.
Hits home every time!

tcr! tcr! · Jan 4, 2020 at 10:15 am

Thanks man! I haven’t felt much like writing these past few months but positive words like yours pump up my motivation.

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The summer of 2019

tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:00 am

Audio (MP3): 20190927 - The summer of 2019

Morning green lights

Peeps, it was a busy summer.

Most of it was spent cleaning and packing up my house. That was a lot. I lived there for 11 years, the longest place I’d ever lived in my life. I threw away countless bags of trash, of life debris and clutter. ā›ø

In June Sara and I went to see Ludovico at the Cadillac Palace in Chicago. Maggie and I went to Gay Pride in Aurora. Sara took all of us to Cantigny Park for my 47th birthday. We played mini golf in the dark during Swedish Days.

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Botsford · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:08 am

Life is good! Enjoy the ridešŸ˜Š

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:38 am

šŸŽ”

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Pelletier · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:09 am

Can I give you BOTH a “Happy” and a “Sad” like?…… Gonna miss you at the office.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:25 am

Maybe we’ll all hook up again at MATS next year!! šŸš›

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Rich J · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:17 am

Who’d a thunk it. Your life change has led you on an incredible journey so far, hasn’t it?

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:26 am

It most certainly has šŸ’«

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Laurie · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:21 am

I am so very happy for you! You are a great guy! ♥ļø

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:26 am

Thank you!

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asquared01 · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:23 am

Sounds like a fantastic summer! Congratulations on the move and the new job! :)

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:27 am

Thanks!! It was pretty fantastic. šŸŽ‰

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flood · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:40 am

It’s so great to hear how well you are doing- congratulations!! šŸ˜Š

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:32 am

Hard telling where I’d be at if it wasn’t for the good people at the Kane County Judicial Center! šŸ˜Š

flood · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:58 am

šŸ˜Š

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sprout · Sep 27, 2019 at 10:50 am

Congrats, old friend. Happy that you’ve found the happiness you deserve.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:36 am

Thank you. The last time you were in Chicago was November 2013. I think you’re overdue. šŸ˜‰

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Ritter Parcel · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:35 am

So happy for you and Maggie! You both deserve happiness. Cant wait to meet Sarah hint hint lol

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:37 am

So when are you and Mike coming to visit? Bring Justice, too!!

Ritter Parcel · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:45 am

Mike, he has spoken lol

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Lewis · Sep 27, 2019 at 11:49 am

Very cool…best wishes to you and Sara.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:36 pm

Thank you!

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cormanang · Sep 27, 2019 at 12:09 pm

TEAM TCR rules. I am happy for you my friend.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:36 pm

Thanks!!

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Sep 27, 2019 at 12:44 pm

šŸ˜Ž

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DeeDee · Sep 27, 2019 at 1:52 pm

Ulysses S Unicorn

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Momma J Momma J · Sep 27, 2019 at 2:36 pm

I’m so happy for you, so proud of you!

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Raes · Sep 27, 2019 at 2:41 pm

Life is a journey…and new beginnings to look forward to.

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tism tism · Sep 27, 2019 at 4:29 pm

W00t!

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franh franh · Sep 27, 2019 at 4:56 pm

Couldn’t be happier for you buddy. Life is good.

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elaineorr · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:26 pm

Lots of good thoughts

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edox edox · Sep 27, 2019 at 5:34 pm

Video (MP4): congrats fireworks spiral

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Irene · Sep 27, 2019 at 9:59 pm

Were you able to transfer within your company or is it a brand new job? Best wishes to all of you on your new beginnings !! How exciting, how fantastic, make the best of everything… Much love!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 10:10 am

Whole new company, fresh start… And thank you!!

Irene · Sep 28, 2019 at 12:50 pm

Good for you. Good luck!

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tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 10:50 am

PS- there’s a lot of false starts in life. Keep going… šŸ’–

Morning green lights false start

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annekothe annekothe · Sep 28, 2019 at 11:29 am

šŸ˜˜

tcr! tcr! · Sep 28, 2019 at 1:02 pm

šŸ˜˜

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jolly green.mp3

tcr! · Sep 21, 2019 at 8:30 am

Audio (MP3): 20190921 - jolly green

Please enjoy another song I recorded sometime in the late 90s, maybe 1998. Of course I wrote all the lyrics and music and played all the instruments. Because that’s what you do when you’re me.

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sometimes you want something so bad

tcr! · Sep 5, 2019 at 1:47 pm

Audio (MP3): 20190905 - sometimes you want something so bad

Video (MP4): 20190905 - sometimes you want something so bad

Peeps, you know how sometimes you want something so bad. Think about it day after day, get angry and frustrated because nothing changes… I get it. I’ve had my fair share of being stuck in jobs, relationships, stuck in some kind of mud.

But trust me when I say that good things are being sorted out in the background. Too often it takes a long mother-clucking time but the stars *will* align. Possibly a couple years later.

It’s okay to give up hope now and then, but keep some trust in your back pocket. The cosmos will sneak up and scare the shit out of you with beautiful things. Be ready.

Purple Pepper Plant Flower

PS- I don’t play in the symphony but sometimes I pretend I do šŸŽ¼ šŸŽ¶

#photos #flowers #lettherebehope #diariespodcast

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Kelly K · Sep 5, 2019 at 3:12 pm

It’s so funny that no matter how many times God has done in my life, exactly what you are talking about, that I still question it for the “next thing”?

tcr! tcr! · Sep 5, 2019 at 4:01 pm

Yep, I posted this as a reminder for myself as well. šŸ˜Š

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keamoose keamoose · Mar 27, 2020 at 5:06 pm

“good things are being sorted out in the background” - love it.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 27, 2020 at 6:09 pm

Yep. That’s how they do šŸ˜Š

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Mar 27, 2020 at 8:12 pm

I am the drummer for the Modern Jazz Quartet.

tcr! tcr! · Mar 28, 2020 at 8:37 am

Did eorr ever give you back your drumsticks?

jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Mar 28, 2020 at 8:39 am

YES!!! I was like a hyperactive 8 year old at Disneyland too. šŸ˜Ž

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Mar 27, 2020 at 8:14 pm

I have to agree with keamoose too. Love the epistles of tcr.

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lisa8 · Mar 27, 2020 at 8:39 pm

Love ya šŸ‘šŸ‘šŸ’–šŸ’–

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