Well, my disgust isn’t rare but seriously, the lady was on the phone relaying a group order 🌯🌯🌯🌯🙄 so I was pondering out the window the very futility of life itself.

#photos #chipotle #allislost

As Tom Petty once sang, “into the great wide open, under them skies of blue.”

#photos #sunsets #tompetty

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#videos #robotvacuum #homeimprovement

My MacBook Air was powered on in the basement, doing it’s own thing while I was upstairs doing my own thing for pretty much all of last night.

And then this morning when I get to work and actually want to use my MacBook, mdworker and his cohorted clones want to take over the world.

Maybe they’re mining bitcoin. 🙄

#fail #apple #skynet

Mostacolli: moss-ta-ko-ly ..or.. moss-ta-cho-ly?

Not how you’re *supposed* to say it, but how do *you* say it?

#videos #grammar #alexa

Audio (MP3): 20171105 - I only saw her rage

Last night I heard an Al-Anon speaker say that she was very angry with her husband while he was drinking. But really she was scared. Scared for a variety of reasons, if he was going to really hurt himself, and so on.

When I was drinking my ex-wife was also very angry. The kind of anger where it felt like I couldn’t do anything right. And I took that very personal because, to me, it just seemed like she was constantly upset with what I was doing and what I wasn’t doing.

It really struck a chord with me, what the speaker said yesterday. Looking back now I can see that my ex-wife was also most likely scared. And frustrated. And hurt. I wish I could’ve seen through to her fear at the time. Seen her hurt instead of her aggravation. Seen her loneliness instead of her judgment.

I feel sad that I only saw her madness and didn’t or couldn’t see what was underneath.

After I’ve moved on and things have passed, it’s easier for me to have an objective look on what was really going on. But in the moment it’s too hard to detach from the then and there, even more so when emotions are high. We’ve all heard that anger is just a cover up but I only see the rage when it’s directed at me.

I started to tear up listening to the speaker because I felt like if I would’ve seen my ex-wife as simply being hurt and scared I would’ve done things differently when we were married.

Instead of reacting defiantly to her anger, I would’ve tried to react lovingly to her pain.

#alcoholism #relationships #diariespodcast

Person B: Don’t say, “peeps” — it makes you sound like you have an entourage.

Me: 🙄

#meanwhile #horrorshow

Do people really eat scones?

#meanwhile #icanteatthis

Person A: You’ve put on weight.

Me: 🙄🔫

#allislost

Me: Did you know Edgar Allan Poe’s mom was only 24 when she died? And he was only two.

Maggie: Ya, we had a whole unit on him in elementary school.

Me: I don’t ever recall having such a unit!

Me: Poe also had a velvet suit and cape when he was but a boy. I only dreamt of such fashion.

Note: it was at this point Maggie stopped listening.