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Post mortem, Bourdain

tcr! · Jun 25, 2018 at 9:20 am

Audio (MP3): 20180625 - Post mortem, Bourdain

Young Anthony Bourbain

The thing that I had a hard time wrapping my mind around with Anthony Bourdain’s suicide is that I kept thinking he was supposed to be above all of that. I wanted not to be surprised but I really was. I felt let down at first regardless of what I said.

I don’t have the kind of heroes or as many of them as I did when I was a teenager but Bourdain may have been the closest thing I had to a celebrity hero as a grown-up.

From the time he was a teenager, through his 20s and 30s, on into his 40s and 50s, and then even in his 60s I admired and respected his different phases and who he ended up as a human being.

With his death I kept thinking annoyed, “you don’t give up.”

When people lose their hope it can sometimes rub off on us. There’s nothing good enough out there to look forward to kinda thing. When the future’s not bright and the struggles of everyday are too much then what’s the point?

I never saw Bourdain as wondering what the point was though. Or running out of hope. But then again I only saw what made it into his TV shows.

Kinda sucks that real-life heroes are only humans, too.

#anthonybourdain #allislost #diariespodcast

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fleming · Jun 25, 2018 at 10:42 am

I loved Bourdain, too, watched him throughout the years, and always thought he had such sad eyes, like he was carrying the weight of the world. After periodically reading he suffered from depression, alcoholism and heroin addiction, this sadness made sense to me. I also read he had relapsed with the heroin and that broke my heart, but I understand when the last vestiges of hope are gone and the pain is so overwhelming, death seems to be the only option for relief. I am so sad he is gone, but will never…as some will say…will never call him a coward or selfish. Imagine the pain he must have suffered to resort to suicide, and feel only loss and sympathy.

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DeeDee · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:15 am

I luv him too!

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erin · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:51 am

He keeps showing up in my dreams but I am not sure what he is there to teach me.

tcr! tcr! · Jun 25, 2018 at 4:53 pm

Well, my take is that I know you you’re a traveler and I know that you love good food so my guess would be that you’re to write a cookbook.

erin · Jun 27, 2018 at 12:34 am

Anthony Hopkins made an appearance last night so I am leaning away from cookbook. #truestory #benadryl

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elaineorr · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:56 am

Maybe what we learn is that when we ask someone how they are they they say, “Having a bad day,” or even “so-so,” we need to ask, “What’s going on with you?” or “How can I help?”

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prokop · Jun 25, 2018 at 4:44 pm

I felt the same. It’s just so sad.

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Happy morning milkweed, peeps!

tcr! · Jun 25, 2018 at 8:00 am

Happy morning milkweed

#photos #flowers

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tcr! tcr! · Jun 25, 2018 at 8:48 am

More happy morning milkweed.

More happy morning milkweed

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Momma J Momma J · Jun 25, 2018 at 9:46 am

Beauty comes in all shapes and sizes - a perfect example

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Jun 23rd, 2018 at 3:28:20 pm

tcr! · Jun 23, 2018 at 3:28 pm

George to go cup

I’m going to change my order name to George. As in Costanza.

#photos #seinfeld

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Kelly K · Jun 23, 2018 at 5:03 pm

It suits you.

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Momma J Momma J · Jun 23, 2018 at 5:07 pm

???

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Hater McGhray Hater McGhray · Jun 23, 2018 at 5:41 pm

T-Bone!

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McQuaid · Jun 23, 2018 at 5:51 pm

Next thing you know you’ll want to be known as Art Vandelay

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tism tism · Jun 23, 2018 at 9:32 pm

It will be the “Summer of George”!!!!

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New ecobee thermostat

tcr! · Jun 23, 2018 at 1:42 pm

Old school thermostat Ecobee thermostat

Finally took my thermostat from the 1980s to the 2018s 💪

#photos #homeimprovement

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Jun 22nd, 2018 at 7:02:01 pm

tcr! · Jun 22, 2018 at 7:02 pm

Sara and I attending Project Bound Dance at Water Street Studios 1 Sara and I attending Project Bound Dance at Water Street Studios 2

Here Sara and I are attending the Live Art Series Presents: Project Bound Dance at Water Street Studios.

Also, that’s her “yeah right” face for when I say something that may have been possibly borderline ridiculous.

💃🕺 #photos #sara

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Unless I’m a celebrity gardener

tcr! · Jun 22, 2018 at 9:00 am

Audio (MP3): 20180622 - Unless I'm a celebrity gardener

Spiral staircase

Not long ago I was reading an article wherein the author said that people aren’t going to care about what you’re doing. Like if I plant a wonderful garden people aren’t going to come from miles around to see it. They won’t throw flowers and shower me with attention.

Unless I’m a celebrity gardener, nobody will care.

How the author believed it did work was like this: if I care about you and your garden then you in turn will care about me and my garden. Of course there’s no black and white rule that you can apply to all people or all situations but I do think there’s a lot to be said for me caring about you and you reciprocating.

All the people that subscribe to my magazine, I’ve established relationships with them. Showed a true interest in them as human beings. And not because I want them to subscribe but because I legitimately care about them and their lives. Because people can smell a rat.

I don’t want to go off on a ratty tangent but I do know that my life is much bigger, much more meaningful when I get to experience another person’s sorrow and happiness. And as a bonus I get to have people care about me and my pursuits. Humans are special. Valuable creatures. If I want to be treated as such then I better do my part.

It’s not always easy to stop and listen to what people are saying when we have plates in the air spinning but what I’ve found is that being there for another’s triumphants becomes so much more fulfilling than experiencing mine own.

Okay, I’d like to think myself all that and a bag of chips but I’m not that spiritual. I don’t fully engage all the time with everyone else’s wins.

However, when I do life is pretty good. Another’s joy will lift up my soul and foster my own creativity. My struggles aren’t that impossible and my plates don’t spin nearly as fast.

And if the china falls, whatever.

#relationships #advancedsoul #diariespodcast

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Karly · Jun 22, 2018 at 9:58 am

You had me until that last line. Replace “whatever” with primal scream and all out panic….and then I’m back in. Lol

tcr! tcr! · Jun 22, 2018 at 10:18 am

That’s funny. I like to use examples like breaking china because they make me uncomfortable with the thought of them actually happening.

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Jun 21st, 2018 at 7:39:37 am

tcr! · Jun 21, 2018 at 9:39 am

Clematis purple Clematis lavender

Prayer without meditation is like planting seeds and leaving the flowers to bloom alone.

#photos #flowers

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Key Lime Bomb sold out

tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 7:29 pm

Key Lime Bomb sold out

#photos #desserts #allislost

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fleming · Jun 20, 2018 at 8:10 pm

I know!!!! Every time I go in for one of those, they’re out!! And I blame that on you!

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Lisette · Jun 21, 2018 at 8:10 pm

I’m so sorry

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Jun 20th, 2018 at 5:16:16 pm

tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 5:16 pm

How many of y’all believe in hypnotism?

Wait. How many have actually been bonafide hypotized?

#inothernews

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tcr! tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 5:26 pm

Maybe I shouldn’t go down this path 🤔

Do not hynotize someone with a history

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Red faced robot

tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:01 am

Audio (MP3): 20180620 - Red faced robot

Red faced robot

So I have this thing that I’ve been doing ever since I was a teenager. It’s not a healthy thing and I’ve struggled to let go of it ever since I stopped drinking.

Most of the time I don’t even realize I’m doing it until after I’ve already done it.

In the last several weeks I realized just how bad the behavior is. How it takes me out of the moment and distracts me from all that I have and all that’s truly important.

So I’ve paying attention in life and seek not to put myself in the situations that prompt my bad behavior in the first place. And I pray for graceful nudges to keep me on the right spiritual path. Me being who I am, it’s all too easy for me to wander off on a self-seeking tangent.

And I’m proud to say that I’ve done fairly well at not doing it.

What is it you may be wondering? That is another very good question but it doesn’t matter.

Anyways, what really sparked my attention to this behavior is that I had somebody do the same thing to me recently. After I’d been doing my best not to do it. And it didn’t feel good. It was a real eye-opener of just how bad it can be when you’re on the receiving end. Karma defined if you will.

And then in related news, what the real story is, is when Sara told me that she didn’t believe in karma.

The notion that karma is false hasn’t left since. Maybe karma is dogma, a made up law to keep people in line for fear of cosmic reprisal.

And then I thought that Sara’s most likely a spiritual revolutionary.

Karma keeps me out of the moment, keeps me waiting for yesterday’s falling dominoes to finally catch up and knock me down in the present. It feeds my suspicion and keeps me thinking that I don’t deserve nice things. Because of the bad things I’ve done.

Karma also gives us a reason “why” and typically that’s never important. To our internal struggles.

What is important is me being the best me that I can be. In the here and now.

#photos #robots #advancedsoul 🤔 #diariespodcast

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Momma J Momma J · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:14 am

Please tell us what Behavior you are referring to!!

tcr! tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:17 am

Irrelevant :)

jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:18 am

It doesn’t matter.

Momma J Momma J · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:19 am

Not irrelevant to me, your mother!

Momma J Momma J · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:20 am

Hi Jimi - it matters to me, his mother!

jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:28 am

Ok. We’re both pretty sure it wasn’t anything monstrous. I doubt he’s capable of anything our imaginations can conjure. I’m on your side, Jeanie. :)

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Hater McGhray Hater McGhray · Jun 20, 2018 at 10:31 am

What did you do to those dolls?

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heather heather · Jun 20, 2018 at 2:13 pm

I bet it’s picking your nose

tcr! tcr! · Jun 20, 2018 at 5:04 pm

Close

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