The last thing I was thinking before going to sleep is that…

I drank the way I did because I’m an alcoholic, no other reason than that. Sure I was full of hurt and anger but the driving force for me to drink was alcoholism.

Drinking can kinda be like going swimming in a lake. It’s a little dangerous if you don’t know what you’re doing, don’t take the proper precautions, yada, yada.

But for an alcoholic it’s like going swimming in the lake with one of those big ship anchors chained to my leg. No matter what I did, I couldn’t get back to shore. Hopelessly treading water while everybody else was drying off and packing up the car.

#confessional #alcoholism

Shut up. :-)

#musicvideos

Amazon’s Jeff Bezos looks to the future

There has never been a company quite like Amazon. Conceived as an online book seller, Amazon has reinvented itself time and again, changing the way the world shops, reads and computes. Amazon has 225 million customers around the world. Its goal is to sell everything to everyone. The brainchild of Jeff Bezos, Amazon prides itself on disrupting the traditional way of doing things. A few weeks ago the company announced it was launching Sunday delivery.

Bezos is on the same level with Steve Jobs as far as I’m concerned — disruption of the traditional and revolution of the existing. He’s not as sexy, out in front delivering iPhones to the masses but Amazon did $17.09 billion in sales in Q3 of this year.

How has the Internet changed my life? I used to watch 60 Minutes now and then on regular, over-the-air TV. Now-a-days I didn’t even know Rose was interviewing Bezos until I read about it online. Even more…I read the transcript and watched the video clips on the link above, got the whole scoop as much as I needed…at my leisure…here at work.

#amazon

Of course I overslept because I was up so late.

I feel like I’m two steps behind now.

#animatedGIFs

Can’t sleep.. Head is working too much.

Not full of angst, just code and fashion and favorite socks. Mine are gray with t-rex dinosaurs.

When I hang up clean clothes in my closet, they push the older-but-still-clean ones farther to the back. No biggie of course when I’m hanging clean stuff up.

But then later when I glance farther into the closet absentmindedly, I see shirts that I haven’t worn for awhile and get a little sad. I feel like they’re missing out on life, that they have no meaning to me anymore, that somehow these threads are sad.

Then I’ll pull out an old shirt, wear it around for five minutes and then take it off in exchange for a newer, cleaner one.

Then the whole ordeal is still on my mind an hour later and I end up writing about it because I feel guilty.

I have problems — I know, I know.

#fashion #confessional

I hate when I’m two seconds away from the fun park of sleep and something snaps me back to reality with a perverse bungee cord.

#thestruggleisreal

Sometimes when I make eye contact with people in meetings, I cross my eyes. And then I feel like an idiot. :-)

Volunteering at Thanksgiving Is a Total Waste of Time | VICE United States

If you knew that your grandmother couldn’t afford enough prescription drugs, you wouldn’t hold a prescription drug drive and have everyone go into their medicine cabinets and donate medicine that they think your grandmother might need.

I wouldn’t do that but it does sound kinda fun.

#thanksgiving #random

There will be no comfort from this guy.

#arts