I don’t know where this quote came from but it’s one of my favorites.
The next time you get driven to your knees to pray, just stay there.
I pray when I’m in pain but mostly I try to pray because I’m okay and want to stay that way. I do my best to stay on my spiritual knees because if I let arrogance or pride or hurt overrule what really matters, I know I’ll be humbled against my will and that’s never fun.
But more than that… I’d rather stay in the sunshine than go sit in the dark. Once wrapped in that warm, peaceful glow sitting in a cold, dark basement doesn’t sound that appealing. I’ve made life bad enough.
Okay, saying “wrapped in that warm, peaceful glow” is fruity. I’m not sitting in a lotus position all day channeling Buddha nor am I walking around on rainbows.
But when I have that cosmonaut bond, I’m okay. And I don’t struggle with the everyday headaches of making lists and tying my shoes.
And kinda like having your heart shattered by a two handed hammer. The red and white bits and pieces explode everywhere. Faster than a sneeze, angrier than the bees.
And sugary shrapnel blasts your eyes and then of course sticks to your socks until the following Sunday.
If you are asking literally, he is doing a show in New Zealand today.
As for his music, he hasn’t released a single since 2010, from his covers album Going Back. His last original singles were in 2004, and his last song that had any impact on the charts was 2002. Chances are you won’t hear anything less than 20 years old, or maybe even 30, when he had his last number 1 outside of Canada.
I would drink to forget like any other stereotype only to learn that my thoughts would not stop nor would I feel better. In the end alcohol just does not work. It won’t do much more than make you stupid or cause you to black out and regret everyone’s actions.
Yep. You can never ‘control’ your thoughts (perhaps in time but nope not now!). I can not control when I get triggered to be angry, or have an impulse to use. But, given enough pause, I CAN control the 2nd and 3rd thought.
That’s where god comes in for me - to give me that pause. The pause also turns the impulse into a conscience decision, which is where accountability comes in (for me).
Also, meditation has been HUGE for me. Again, it’s not about controlling thoughts, but rather teaches you to let them go. I use Headspace and they describe it as a lawn chair in the middle of a highway where the cars are your thoughts. You learn to just let them pass on by without grabbing on to them!
When I was newly sober, having a list of amends to make was like having a big pile of bills to pay. And I hate that feeling: a stack of checks to write and a list of people and places I owe. It’s just always on my mind, lingering in the back row like somebody murmuring behind you at the movies. When I stopped drinking my conscious woke up and I start hearing the voices of remorse.
And then there was that one time when I was in high school that I stole a whole bunch of books from the public library. It was way back when shoplifting was easy. Go in with a nearly empty backpack, load it up with Hobbit adventures, and walk out. Just be careful and it was really that easy. I didn’t feel any guilt at the time because for whatever reason in my head, the world owed me.
Never have I felt that it sounds as if you were giving a speech. I’ve always been captivated by your words, whether it be written or spoken. I’m also totally digging the new format/video edits in addition to the DIY audio tracks. And as always it’s wonderfully relatable in regards to recovery. πΆβ€οΈ
Thanks man! What you said means a lot and I appreciate it! In another life all I did was record music in my free time and I love splicing audio into spoken word pieces. Then I don’t have to follow the verse, chorus, solo formula. We should definitely record some conversations and/or musics at some point!
I’d rather see a sermon than hear one any day I’d rather one would walk with me than merely tell the way …is what someone said in a meeting to me. I later found that they were quoting Bruce Carroll. I don’t know anything about Mr. Carroll other than that’s what google said about the lines.
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