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Just stay there

tcr! · Feb 8, 2019 at 6:55 am

Audio (MP3): 20190208 - Just stay there

Candle in the dark

I don’t know where this quote came from but it’s one of my favorites.

The next time you get driven to your knees to pray, just stay there.

I pray when I’m in pain but mostly I try to pray because I’m okay and want to stay that way. I do my best to stay on my spiritual knees because if I let arrogance or pride or hurt overrule what really matters, I know I’ll be humbled against my will and that’s never fun.

But more than that… I’d rather stay in the sunshine than go sit in the dark. Once wrapped in that warm, peaceful glow sitting in a cold, dark basement doesn’t sound that appealing. I’ve made life bad enough.

Okay, saying “wrapped in that warm, peaceful glow” is fruity. I’m not sitting in a lotus position all day channeling Buddha nor am I walking around on rainbows.

But when I have that cosmonaut bond, I’m okay. And I don’t struggle with the everyday headaches of making lists and tying my shoes.

#photos #candles #lettherebehope #diariespodcast

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Feb 7th, 2019 at 4:26:27 pm

tcr! · Feb 7, 2019 at 4:26 pm

If you don’t ever get attached to people then you’ll never be disappointed.

BoomπŸ’₯

#protip

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Fitwidge · Feb 7, 2019 at 4:23 pm

But how do we not get attached to people?

tcr! tcr! · Feb 7, 2019 at 4:46 pm

Now that is a very good question.

Fitwidge · Feb 7, 2019 at 4:48 pm

If you don’t mind me asking… is this a relationship issue?

tcr! tcr! · Feb 7, 2019 at 5:23 pm

More of yesterday’s familiar theme.

And kinda like having your heart shattered by a two handed hammer. The red and white bits and pieces explode everywhere. Faster than a sneeze, angrier than the bees.

And sugary shrapnel blasts your eyes and then of course sticks to your socks until the following Sunday.

Peppermint anyone?

DatingCoach111 · Feb 7, 2019 at 5:54 pm

Yeah I’ll take one.

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squiddem · Feb 8, 2019 at 12:17 am

And you’ll also never be inspired by them

tcr! tcr! · Feb 8, 2019 at 7:50 am

Good point

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-DTXX- · Feb 10, 2019 at 3:17 pm

But what if you are already too deep in that?…

tcr! tcr! · Feb 10, 2019 at 3:59 pm

Detach I guess 😊

-DTXX- · Feb 10, 2019 at 4:18 pm

Don’t want to, afraid of losing it forever.

tcr! tcr! · Feb 11, 2019 at 6:48 am

Can’t have it both ways. Sucks but that’s just the path we’re on.

-DTXX- · Feb 11, 2019 at 6:49 am

True…

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Where the hell is Phil Collins anyway?

tcr! · Feb 5, 2019 at 8:37 pm

He was just on the radio but it was an 80s hit.

#philcollins #missedconnections

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TreeRol · Feb 6, 2019 at 10:20 am

If you are asking literally, he is doing a show in New Zealand today.

As for his music, he hasn’t released a single since 2010, from his covers album Going Back. His last original singles were in 2004, and his last song that had any impact on the charts was 2002. Chances are you won’t hear anything less than 20 years old, or maybe even 30, when he had his last number 1 outside of Canada.

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Spider shirt, spider coat, and spider gloves

tcr! · Feb 5, 2019 at 7:34 pm

Spider shirt, spider coat, and spider gloves

I didn’t do this on purpose.

πŸ•· #photos #fashion #spiders

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threecrates threecrates · Feb 5, 2019 at 7:56 pm

I am wearing my Spider snowboard jacket right now at this very moment! πŸ˜†β€οΈ

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Okay god, enough.

tcr! · Feb 4, 2019 at 11:53 pm

I can feel a hundred and one kinds of crazy …but how I act is what I’m held accountable for.

I learned that in recovery.

#lettherebehope

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lostsoul1481 · Feb 5, 2019 at 5:06 am

True. Ive learned as well i cant stop what i think abt but i can stop how long i think abt it

tcr! tcr! · Feb 5, 2019 at 7:44 am

Yep, no reason to revel in the torment!

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baphosam · Feb 5, 2019 at 8:06 am

I would drink to forget like any other stereotype only to learn that my thoughts would not stop nor would I feel better. In the end alcohol just does not work. It won’t do much more than make you stupid or cause you to black out and regret everyone’s actions.

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whoblowsthere · Feb 5, 2019 at 9:07 am

Yep. You can never ‘control’ your thoughts (perhaps in time but nope not now!). I can not control when I get triggered to be angry, or have an impulse to use. But, given enough pause, I CAN control the 2nd and 3rd thought.

That’s where god comes in for me - to give me that pause. The pause also turns the impulse into a conscience decision, which is where accountability comes in (for me).

Also, meditation has been HUGE for me. Again, it’s not about controlling thoughts, but rather teaches you to let them go. I use Headspace and they describe it as a lawn chair in the middle of a highway where the cars are your thoughts. You learn to just let them pass on by without grabbing on to them!

Anyway, best of luck!

tcr! tcr! · Feb 5, 2019 at 11:55 am

Pause, pray, proceed — gotta be my favorite slogan.

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jerry125725 · Feb 5, 2019 at 12:12 pm

Nice thought!

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Sister cats, side by side

tcr! · Feb 4, 2019 at 11:46 pm

Sister cats side by side

It’s a new year’s miracle!

#photos #cats

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A bunch of bills and checks to write

tcr! · Feb 3, 2019 at 9:15 am

Audio (MP3): 20190203 - A bunch of bills and checks to write

Video (MP4): 20190203 - A bunch of bills and checks to write

When I was newly sober, having a list of amends to make was like having a big pile of bills to pay. And I hate that feeling: a stack of checks to write and a list of people and places I owe. It’s just always on my mind, lingering in the back row like somebody murmuring behind you at the movies. When I stopped drinking my conscious woke up and I start hearing the voices of remorse.

And then there was that one time when I was in high school that I stole a whole bunch of books from the public library. It was way back when shoplifting was easy. Go in with a nearly empty backpack, load it up with Hobbit adventures, and walk out. Just be careful and it was really that easy. I didn’t feel any guilt at the time because for whatever reason in my head, the world owed me.

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threecrates threecrates · Sep 9, 2020 at 10:35 pm

Never have I felt that it sounds as if you were giving a speech. I’ve always been captivated by your words, whether it be written or spoken. I’m also totally digging the new format/video edits in addition to the DIY audio tracks. And as always it’s wonderfully relatable in regards to recovery. 🎢❀️

tcr! tcr! · Sep 11, 2020 at 8:07 am

Thanks man! What you said means a lot and I appreciate it! In another life all I did was record music in my free time and I love splicing audio into spoken word pieces. Then I don’t have to follow the verse, chorus, solo formula. We should definitely record some conversations and/or musics at some point!

threecrates threecrates · Sep 11, 2020 at 10:54 am

I would like that very much!

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sveagrabarek · Sep 10, 2020 at 12:43 pm

September, the 9th month!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 11, 2020 at 8:09 am

It was no accident, the cosmos knows what it’s doing πŸ˜‰

tcr! tcr! · Sep 11, 2020 at 8:09 am

Okay, I don’t know what that means exactly.

sveagrabarek · Sep 11, 2020 at 4:14 pm

Bills and checks and amends. 9th step, 9th month

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DP · Sep 10, 2020 at 7:27 pm

“There’s no pillow as soft as a clear conscious.” Brilliant

tcr! tcr! · Sep 10, 2020 at 8:54 pm

I wish that was my quote, but it’s still really good none the less 😊

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Momma J Momma J · Sep 10, 2020 at 7:35 pm

I like the Spontaneity. The ah’s don’t bother me. Useful/ Helpful content. I’d much rather see you then listen to the Podcast.

tcr! tcr! · Sep 10, 2020 at 8:58 pm

I think the ah’s only bother me when I listen to what I’ve recorded πŸ˜„

Momma J Momma J · Sep 10, 2020 at 10:54 pm

You are too hard on yourself!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 11, 2020 at 8:17 am

I just have high goals for myself but I’m okay with not people perfect 😊

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battersons · Sep 10, 2020 at 8:44 pm

Beautifully written!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 10, 2020 at 8:58 pm

Thank you!!

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jimi hindrance experience jimi hindrance experience · Sep 12, 2020 at 8:44 am

I’d rather see a sermon than hear one any day I’d rather one would walk with me than merely tell the way …is what someone said in a meeting to me. I later found that they were quoting Bruce Carroll. I don’t know anything about Mr. Carroll other than that’s what google said about the lines.

Momma J Momma J · Sep 12, 2020 at 1:39 pm

Perfectly said!

tcr! tcr! · Sep 13, 2020 at 8:13 am

That’s a good thing to carry in one’s pocket

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Black and white cat nap

tcr! · Feb 2, 2019 at 2:04 pm

Black and white cat nap

#photos #cats #napsarespiritual

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Sunset for Feb 1st, 2019

tcr! · Feb 1, 2019 at 5:33 pm

Sunset for Feb 1st 2019

#photos #sunsets

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Restroom horse at Chamber Red

tcr! · Jan 31, 2019 at 6:55 pm

Restroom horse at Chamber Red

This crazy horse in the chinese bistro makes it kinda hard to use the facilities.

🎠 #photos #horses #publicrestroom

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