It’s amazing the way the Universe continues to teach her students. I had 2 different abusive bosses. 3 actually. One of them was a lot more mental than the other 2. The 2 who were mean SOB’s got their just deserts in my time. It was sweet. I am not a harsh task master. When I teach, I usually just show ‘em how until they know for themselves. Then they can ask questions as the spirit moves ‘em if they want to know more.
I don’t believe in Heaven and Hell. I wish there were a Hell. There’d be a corner for the bullies and I’d get medieval. You’d have to know me and it’s kind of my private hell/fear that people can tell I been bullied. It was not my fault and I did not deserve it. I didn’t do anything, let alone anything wrong.
I usually don’t go that far with the whole thing and it has been a long time in fact since I said anything at all. I guess I assume T knows. I don’t know if I ever said anything as public as all this but I don’t care either. What goes around comes around. I believe that more than I believe most things. Sometimes you have to wait a long time and sometimes you don’t get to be the conductor but it will always come around again.
One of my main tormentors has lost his mind, kind of like in the movie Sling Blade. The last time I saw him he was very obviously permanently impaired from one damn thing or another. Serves him right.
Thank you T. I guess I really need to get out more (laughing to myself). Nope, I had no idea Halford was gay. I didn’t listen to too much JP but I’ve done more than my share of bleating about these types.
IE “these types”: Club Camel circa 90’s. At least half of the personalities I’m thinking of modeled their style on JP’s front man. And to learn that he’s gay just ices the cake for me. These are guys that have definite opinions on the whole gay thing and they would definitely not let their daughter date someone of that ilk. (I’m still killing it here for me.)
File this under “you would have to know him” and let’s plan a JP listening party soon.
I think I just built in this delusional fear that I was going to destroy myself, no one was going to look at me any more as a metal singer, I’m going to destroy Priest because of my attachment with them. It was all self-imposed paranoia. It didn’t affect Priest one iota: the record sales didn’t plunge, the show attendance didn’t plunge. Unconditional love will accept you for who you are, and I think that was the blessing I had from the fans.