Back when I was drinking I wasn’t enough. Inside. I wanted something, anything to tell me that I was. And one of those things I wanted, probably the biggest was “more.”
Not just more drinking but more “doing”, too. Constantly feeling on the go, I got this to do and that to do. Doing more, wanting more. More, more, more.
Love this! Thank you for sharing. I was the same, always filling my time with things and stuff. I could never say no. But now I make sure to take time out for me, to process things, check in with God. I’d stepped away from meetings recently, but I’ve realised now how important those and the step work is. Having that space to express yourself, to be able to look at yourself and your behaviour and think where can I do better. Magic!
Thank you for this! I’ve always been a “yes” gal, to my own detriment. It’s difficult to differentiate, for me at least, what IS god’s will and what is me playing martyr by pleasing everyone around me. That’s danger zone and leads to resentment and self pity and we all know those are not good places to be. I’m now giving myself permission to do nothing, and by that I mean sitting in bed while eating TWO different types of ice cream and watching Louie. (Friday night rager!) Strength and serenity to all! βΊοΈ
If they come knockin’ they’re fair game, Scientology style. Ask ‘em for a knobber. You’ll be able to tell by the look on their face how often they get the question. Body language would also go a long way toward knowing how enthusiastic their approach would be. Best to get these issues out in the open before you implement any private plans you had in mind. If you already got a dry well in the basement all we need is some lighting and we could do a budget remake.
As I pull into the Golden Corral for an early lunch of buffet goodness, I’m wondering on the lady in the car ahead of me.
I don’t know if she’s talking on the phone or rapping to her sweet, mid-morning jams. Either way she’s waving her hand and crossing her fingers so I wish her good luck.
PS- I don’t eat at Golden Corral. I’m at the Comcast Store because I needed a real person this time, not some jive ass honky robot cracker mother clucker.
Good morning moon,
way in the distance,
reflecting sunbeams,
up all night,
swirling in the heavens,
pulling oceans up and down,
filled with havarti,
making lunatics.
Calling to Armstrong for the rest of his life,
like a sweet bitch.
I try to be poetic and stuff but then usually fall out of my chair.
Well, my disgust isn’t rare but seriously, the lady was on the phone relaying a group order π―π―π―π―π so I was pondering out the window the very futility of life itself.
fleming · Nov 10, 2017 at 9:52 am
Wow…great insight! Glad you’re in a better place now!
Thank you!
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Peasful87 · Nov 10, 2017 at 10:45 am
Love this! Thank you for sharing. I was the same, always filling my time with things and stuff. I could never say no. But now I make sure to take time out for me, to process things, check in with God. I’d stepped away from meetings recently, but I’ve realised now how important those and the step work is. Having that space to express yourself, to be able to look at yourself and your behaviour and think where can I do better. Magic!
You are most welcome! And thanks for your comments, too. Self-critique is where I seem to fall short the most, but man does it do me wonders.
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VankeleGlam · Nov 10, 2017 at 6:13 pm
Thank you for this! I’ve always been a “yes” gal, to my own detriment. It’s difficult to differentiate, for me at least, what IS god’s will and what is me playing martyr by pleasing everyone around me. That’s danger zone and leads to resentment and self pity and we all know those are not good places to be. I’m now giving myself permission to do nothing, and by that I mean sitting in bed while eating TWO different types of ice cream and watching Louie. (Friday night rager!) Strength and serenity to all! βΊοΈ
“permission to do nothing” — love it!
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