My whole life 2day is sort of about honoring the past without living n it, i accept myself 2day, 4 most part & aint living with my head n past or future pretty good bv when u & i’s relationship n the past popped n2 my present moment, thats how i deal with past now, not sweat & cipher & wring my hands, i did that 2 point of redundancy & with another person we both know, she say, ‘yeah, we’re fukn good & what u can do is NEVER BRING IT UP AGAIN!!!’ I say, ‘oh’ & so thats how its been. Alot of others actf like I was outta my mind-my fukn insanity was big joyride & if table turned i dont believe thats how i would have perceived it. Jimmy crops n2 my present every now & again cause he did me alot of good & i self-righteously shit on him when he was down.

there were many occasions when he needed a real friend & despite his skills & intuition & knowing i had turned n2 a self-righteous, moralizing reactive prick-he turned 2 me & got his fingers bit by the wounded animal he knew i was. I could be everything but a friend..Just learning bout it now really. I came 2 terms with Jim & I might bump n2 eachother again & if we dont well-it was just best 2 leave it alone… but KNOW i was wrong with him & about him & gave him some really scathing, seething sermons when that bout the last thing he needed. With some others i can say i was big fukhead but when chips were really down i came thru…not so with jimmy-when he really needed me…i failed him everytime :-( but @ l do know it & accept it & can move 4ward.

#messaging #sgc

The Politics of Measles - The New Yorker

…An infamous 1998 study in The Lancet, which claimed that the rising incidence of autism was linked to vaccinations, was particularly influential with some of those parents—even though the data were found to be falsified and the author’s medical license was revoked…

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…Asked about immunization on CNN last week, Senator Rand Paul, a potential Republican candidate for President—and a doctor—painted a pointlessly terrifying scenario: “I’ve heard of many tragic cases of walking, talking, normal children who wound up with profound mental disorders after vaccines.” No doubt, he has heard such stories, but the evidence does not support them…

I cherry picked what I thought most important.

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#cats #animatedGIFs

Set alarm off @ work trying 2 stuff note thru door :-D Last nite was n Other Zone agin & 1st x ev i can recall, without looking n a mirror, i saw myself n ‘dream’. Not 4 long I just went running by & looked fucking rough. That was toward end-i think i was trying 2 get back here. Anyway, met some others & we all knew we were here & there. I had little device they wanted me 2 show 2 some others who didnt believe us. Housing always an issue like im now we r trespassing-like we someplace we aint spose 2 b. Others allow it but dont like it. Few nites was violence but over now. Outside usually feels polluted & there few big gnarly mutated fish n a mud pond Used 2 b lots of rushing water going through broken damns & bridges n disrepair. Report filed.

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#starwars

Screw this… Don’t gimme no 1 degree bullshit.

#winter

OMG… I didn’t know they made a TV show with everybody’s favorite doctor.

#tv #doctorlecter

#valentines #doctorlecter

Peeps, no matter what happens…

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