Audio (MP3): 20180625 - Post mortem, Bourdain
The thing that I had a hard time wrapping my mind around with Anthony Bourdain’s suicide is that I kept thinking he was supposed to be above all of that. I wanted not to be surprised but I really was. I felt let down at first regardless of what I said.
I don’t have the kind of heroes or as many of them as I did when I was a teenager but Bourdain may have been the closest thing I had to a celebrity hero as a grown-up.
From the time he was a teenager, through his 20s and 30s, on into his 40s and 50s, and then even in his 60s I admired and respected his different phases and who he ended up as a human being.
With his death I kept thinking annoyed, “you don’t give up.”
When people lose their hope it can sometimes rub off on us. There’s nothing good enough out there to look forward to kinda thing. When the future’s not bright and the struggles of everyday are too much then what’s the point?
I never saw Bourdain as wondering what the point was though. Or running out of hope. But then again I only saw what made it into his TV shows.
Kinda sucks that real-life heroes are only humans, too.
fleming · Jun 25, 2018 at 10:42 am
I loved Bourdain, too, watched him throughout the years, and always thought he had such sad eyes, like he was carrying the weight of the world. After periodically reading he suffered from depression, alcoholism and heroin addiction, this sadness made sense to me. I also read he had relapsed with the heroin and that broke my heart, but I understand when the last vestiges of hope are gone and the pain is so overwhelming, death seems to be the only option for relief. I am so sad he is gone, but will never…as some will say…will never call him a coward or selfish. Imagine the pain he must have suffered to resort to suicide, and feel only loss and sympathy.
DeeDee · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:15 am
I luv him too!
elongdo · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:51 am
He keeps showing up in my dreams but I am not sure what he is there to teach me.
tcr! · Jun 25, 2018 at 4:53 pm
Well, my take is that I know you you’re a traveler and I know that you love good food so my guess would be that you’re to write a cookbook.
elongdo · Jun 27, 2018 at 12:34 am
Anthony Hopkins made an appearance last night so I am leaning away from cookbook. #truestory #benadryl
elaineorr · Jun 25, 2018 at 11:56 am
Maybe what we learn is that when we ask someone how they are they they say, “Having a bad day,” or even “so-so,” we need to ask, “What’s going on with you?” or “How can I help?”
prokop · Jun 25, 2018 at 4:44 pm
I felt the same. It’s just so sad.